Thoughts from an Unknown.


Kill you like they do on TV.
February 18, 2009, 2:13 pm
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Marilyn Manson’s new album is titled “The high end of low” and it comes out in May 2009. I am sooooooooooo excited. Oh and he is headlining Mayhemfest and is coming to Michigan on August 2, 2009. I want to go REALLY bad, but lawn tickets are $66… I will see what I can swing man. I hope I can go.

I LOVE MARILYN MANSON!!!!!!!!!!

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Long Hard Road out of Hell.
December 22, 2008, 4:26 pm
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“Marilyn Manson attended a party in Miami at the Hotel Gansevoort with model Isani Griffith.  You think she would date him if he were working in Blockbuster for $6 an hour and dressing the same way?  Amazing what money can get you these days.  Luckily she probably has some serious daddy issues.”

I am blown away that someone could say this about someone else!!!!!!!!!!  I hate when people who don’t even know ANYTHING about Marilyn Manson think they can just get away with saying things like this. Assholes, that’s all they are.  Assholes. All I have to say is that he is amazing and she is lucky he is even giving her the time of day. Anyone would be extremely lucky to be with him. People suck.

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Waiting in the Jungle Room.
July 2, 2008, 4:26 pm
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     Analyzing. I do it a lot. I think a lot too. What would happen if this happened? This is one of the things that holds me back in life. If I could just stop thinking about what could happen and what didn’t happen then maybe I could finally become who I want to be. If I could stop second guessing everything in my life then maybe I could move forward. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret anything that I have ever done or wish that things in my past could be different because lets face it, it’s made me who I am. I like who I am… kinda. I like  being strange and my own person, but what about the quier sensitive girl that no one knows. I think that even if I wanted to I couldn’t change who I am. Even now…if I’m not loud and talking all the time then I have seventy people asking me what is wrong. Nothing is wrong. It’s just that most people only know one side of me. They only know the Janelle that is outgoing and fearless.

     What if I wasn’t who everyone thought I was? What if I was some crazy person who thinks about retarded things that someone shouldn’t think about? What if I was someone who people wouldn’t like? Most of who I am is because of my over-analyzing. I think that if I say something that someone doesn’t like then they won’t like me. So, I won’t say it. I know that I say that I don’t care what people think about me, and I don’t, it’s just sometimes, I change me so it will make people happy. It all depends on the person. I do it with everyone. With the exception of a select few. It’s not that I am being fake so that they will be happy, I’m just being the me that they want to see.

     The real me is loud, abnoxious, rendictive, mean, obsessed with Marilyn Manson, interested in serial killers, poetic, smart, and has a low self esteem. In a way, I am a giant contradiction. i am loud, but I don’t say anything. I am abnoxious, but I am understanding, I am rendictive, but I have said “an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.” I am mean, but I am nice, I am obsessed with Marilyn Manson, but I love country music. I am interested in serial killers, but I am scared of dying. I am poetic, but I am I am scrambled. I am smart, but I have no common sense.  I have a low self-esteem, but I think that I am an amazing person.  I don’t know if I know who I am anymore.

     I think that I have lost myself in the world. I have become so many things that I don’t know if any of it really is real. I can’t tell the difference between the REAL me and who everyone thinks that I am. I keep saying that if this one thing would happen then I would know who I am. If Drew would love me then I will be complete. When I go to college I will know who I am. When people like me, I will know who I am . When I get to have a conversation with Manson, then I will know who I really am. When I learn to love me, I will know who I am. The more that I think about it, the more I realize that I am making up excuses for myself. I am pretending to be someone and I don’t know who I am. That is that. i don’t know when I will know me. I don’t when I will figure myself out.

     I am okay with not knowing who I am. When it happens it happens. That’s it.

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Obsession.
February 20, 2008, 12:24 am
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It’s all I can think about. On February 4, 2008 I went to go see Marilyn Manson in concert and I have been obsessed ever since. I love him. I love his music. I love what he stands for. He is sexy in his own way and I love that he is what he wants to be. All of my friends are so sick of hearing me talk about him. I am sure. I know that I am not literally in love with him, but if I knew him I’m sure that I would be. He’s all I think about. When I go on the computer I look at pictures of him and listen to his music. I think of ways I can get posters of him….shirts with him on it. I already have two but I feel like that isn’t enough. I want to meet him. I want to touch him. I want to have a conversation with him. I am so sick of everyone blaming him and his music when some kid shoots up a school. It isn’t his fault that a kid is so fucked up. I was watching an interview that he did  with David Letterman and boy was he on point. He is so intelligent and I hate that no one sees that. He is creative and it all comes from his soul. He is an artist, musician, director, producer, and so much more. He has been in movies, has been on many soundtracks and is now making his own movie. I can tell you that I will be going to see it the day that it comes out. I want to see him in concert again. I almost cried when he went crowd surfing and I didn’t get to touch him. He is sooooo sexy. I know that he isn’t the blonde hair, blue eyes abercrombie model that everyone wants, but I don’t see how everyone doesn’t love him as much as I do. People are always giving him more negative. You swear too much, you drink too much, you advocate having sex and doing drugs, blah blah blah. Not only does no one see that he is extremely amazing and talented, they blame him for things that he has no connection to at all. They tried to fucking blame him for Columbine. Just because he person that shoot up the school is a fan of his doesn’t mean that he told them to do it. His music is all about being who you are and making it through the hard times. Not killing people because they don’t understand you. If that was the case we would have a lot of dead bible thumpers. Even his ex-wife Dita Von Tesse would be dead. She wanted him to change and because he is proud of who he is, the marriage didn’t work. Sucks for her.

Ugh.

I will continue to think about him while I go to sleep tonight and maybe I will dream about him.

I had a dream about him a couple days ago. I was sitting in a cafe and he walked in. I saw him and was excited. I went over to talk to him and we had a conversation like we had known each other for years. I picked his brain on why he wrote music the way he did and he asked me why I liked it. We went on a walk and it was almost perfect. The only thing that ruined it was the whole waking up thing. I wish that I could say that I have had my own personal little date with him. Lmao. I wish it were true that dreams are all connected and because I was dreaming about him that he was dreaming about me to, but because he doesn’t know me I find that a little hard to believe.

I hear my next date with Marilyn calling me.

Good Night.

P.S. Rachel Evan Wood is the luckiest girl in the world. (She is his girlfriend)

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