Thoughts from an Unknown.


Come Back Home.
November 26, 2009, 4:05 pm
Filed under: AWESOME, Family, love, religion | Tags: , , , , , ,

Happy Turkey Day everyone :]]

Today is the day to eat until you pass out because you  can’t fight the itis anymore. Today is the day to spend with the people you love and cherish. Today is a day to be thankful for everything and everyone good in your life. Today is the day to thank God for being alive and being love. Today is a day I hope everyone loves and enjoys.

What are the things I am thankful for today? Hmmm.

I am thankful that I have amazing friends in my live that love me more than I could ever imagine. I am thankful that I have a BEST FRIEND that is the peanut butter to my jelly and gets me forever and always. I am thankful that I have a family to love me, even when I don’t love them very much. I am thankful that I have a God that loves me in so many ways, especially when I’ve seemed to have lost my way. I am thankful that I am smart and that God has blessed me with the skills to make my own way in life. I am thakful that I am breathing and living and enjoying everyday of my life. I am thankful that I have a house to live in and have money (not a lot but some) to buy nice things. I am just plain thankful to be me and be alive. Thank you God <3

What are you thankful for today?



Take it All.
March 30, 2009, 10:24 am
Filed under: AWESOME, Concerts, Friends, love, music, religion, school | Tags: , , , , , , , ,

This weekend was pretty damn amazing :] With the exception of having my phone stolen on Friday… I just checked at security too and no one turned it in. The people there kind of laughed at me when I said I thought someone would turn it in. Now I have to get a new phone… Oh well though… shit happens and I can’t change it now so why linger?

NOW TO SATURDAY! On saturday morning, I went to Golf and Tennis with Kathy and got my racquet re-strung. It looks soooo boss man. I have bright neon yellow strings now :D It goes great with the blue face and orange grip. I love that I can spot my racquet from like seven miles away… atleast I know no one could steal it now and then use it infront of me. While we were waiting, we went to Subway. This is when my mother became embarrassing, which she normally isn’t, and basically told Kathy our life story. Maybe not EVERYTHING, but she got close. Lets just say that Kathy now knows A LOT more than she did before….

After we dropped Kathy off my mom did some quick errands and we went home. I got ready and left like an hour and a half or so later…. I drove to Emily’s house and then to Northbrook for SoulFire. IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN!!!! I never thought that God and Jesus and anything at church could be so enjoyable. There were games and music and cards and all that good stuff. Then we had a music packed worship led by Seven Glory and Bob. Bob is the youth director there…. he’s a cool guy. After the worship, Seven Glory had a concert and Em and I were jamming out. We didn’t even notice when Abby and Sara were gone. They weren’t as into it as Em and I were.

After the concert, Em asked if I wanted to spend the night at her house. Her mom said yes. My mom said yes. I went home after got some clothes and drove back to Em’s. I was really shocked that my mother let me take the car and KEEP it like all night/morning. I had a really good time at Emily’s house. We slept on the pullout couch and spent like a billion  hours talking. We were up until four in the morning talking actually. Then we had to get up at like 8:30am for church.

I really did enjoy church though. At Northbrook they seem to make things fun, and… different… in a way I can understand it. I told my mom that I want to become a member there and both her and Emily said that I should take some more time and make SURE that it is the church for me before I make such a big commitment. It’s understandable, but I mean, I’ve been there before and I REALLY like it there. I don’t know.. I guess it doesn’t hurt to take some more time and be absolutely POSITIVE. After church, Mrs. S got us all bagels, but I had to leave right after I ate.

When I got home we had to leave again to meet Diane and Carol for Brunch. I had a lot of fun with them, I always do. They really are like my favorite family members. We went to Bob Evans and the omelette was SOOOOOOOOOO good. I wanted more. That too and the home fries were crazy good.

We went to Aunt Pat’s after and I slept. We went home. Mom and Bruce got into this really big fight when we got home. Mom was all like GET OUT and Bruce was all like FUCK YOU and it was just screaming and yelling and craziness. I locked myself in the bathroom until they were done. Then I went to sleep, got up, ate, watched tv, went back to sleep. I was a sleepy girl :]

OHHH. I got a new nose stud on Friday too :] It’s a peace sign and I am in LOVE with it.

I get to get a new phone though :] Hopefully a samsung Gravtiy like I want.

I can’t wait until Friday!!! I get to see Krissy!! I am going to Ann Arbor for Relay for Life so I’m spending most of the weekend there. I CAN’T WAIT!

NEXT WEEK IS SPRING BREAK! YAY! (Too bad all I’m going to do is play tennis because we have two-a-days Monday thru Thursday.)



I’m a Fake.
September 20, 2008, 5:19 pm
Filed under: Friends, Insight | Tags: , , , , , , , , ,

What do you do and how do you feel when someone that you thought you could really trust is telling everyone around you lies? What do you do when you feel betrayed by someone who you thought would never betray you? Those are the questions I have… I don’t know how to feel because someone who is SUCH a good friend is telling others that I am talking about them. I mean, I don’t deny talking about her, but she told her that MY MOM was too?!?!?!? She also said things that I didn’t say. Plus, it’s not like she herself as never said anything bad about said person. She talks shit about her all the time. Why would she say that? I don’t know… I don’t know how I can feel about her now. I still love her, but it’s making feel like I invested way too much trust in her now. I just don’t see what I ever did wrong to deserve this. I can’t even fix it. I was brought into someone else’s problem, which is the worst because I have to let HER fix it… I can’t. It’s just really hard to pretend like nothing is wrong when I know that she really is talking about me behind my back.

I know that a lot of people talk shit about me, but I didn’t think that she would be one who would. I love her, I really do. It’s just a giant shock to me man. I don’t know what to do. I want to say that everything is going to be okay, but part of me doesn’t believe that. I have never said anything bad about her and I still haven’t… I really just don’t see what I did to her. I was told it was her way of breaking up two of her friends and I was somehow just dragged into it. That’s not cool. I feel like I haven’t really done anything bad to anyone this year. I don’t know. I just don’t know man. I hate not being able to say anything, but I have to keep my mouth shut because this ‘thing’ doesn’t need to get any bigger than it already is.

To think that I dogged Michael for her… Guh…



Full Price Deal, No Problem.
August 4, 2008, 10:01 pm
Filed under: Insight, love | Tags: , , , ,

     Why is that we always hurt the ones that truely love us and put the ones that don’t first? Think about it, we always want to talk to the ones that won’t end up loving us in the end, but we never want to talk to the ones that will. Family, we never want to talk to family. Stupid boys, we always want to talk to them. I just think that it’s soo stupid that a majority of normal people put the ones that we are attracted to before the ones that have always been there for us. Family and true friends are the only ones that will ALWAYS be there for us. If they aren’t, then they never really loved you. Thats the way that relationships are. We find that person that we think completes us and then forget everyone else. No one else in the world exists anymore.

     Also, why do we always keep loving the people that continue to hurt us? There is always that first love that evey person has and if you are lucky you get to keep them. In most cases though, we don’t and they hurt us. They always hurt us. We always love them. I guess if you ever stop loving them then you never truely loved them in the first place. No amount of time or distance can kill true love. 

     I just wish that I wasn’t one of the people who fall into this catergory…



Drunkness.
March 9, 2008, 1:36 pm
Filed under: Alcohol, Family | Tags: , , , ,

I came home yesterday from tennis practice. Innocent as a lamb. I come home and who is here? My brother and his best friend Chris. What were they doing? Playing beer pong. Duh. I should have known. I ended up playing with them and I got so fucking toasted. I was walking around and I don’t even know how many times I fell dude. I made like 4 boxes of Mac and Cheese too.  Bruce and Chris have this weird thing about Macaroni and Cheese with Cheese Puffs. It looks so fucking gross. They wanted me to try it and I wouldn’t because I think that I would have fucking thrown up. I played like 6 games of beer pongs and I am pretty good.
Scores:

Bruce and Janelle vs. Chris

JANELLE WIN

Bruce and Janelle vs. Chris

JANELLE WIN

Chris and Janelle vs. Bruce

JANELLE WIN

Chris and Janelle vs. Bruce

BRUCE WIN

I was so drunk by the end of the 4th game that I don’t remember you was winning after that I have no idea who won. It was fun though. I have never drank with my brother before or any of his friends. I kept calling guys. I was texting people too. I texted Steven and told him that I loved him. I didn’t mean it in the LOVE LOVE way, but he was freaking because he knew that I was drunk and COULD have meant it the other way. I don’t love him in that way though. I do love him, but it’s because he has been there for me lately. He has been my rock and when I felt like shit he has been there. I have really grown close to him in the late couple months. I am going to miss him a lot next year. He promised that he won’t ignore me though so it’s all good.

I have realized something. I tend to call people when I get drunk. People I called when I was drunk:

  • Drew
  • Michael
  • Mike
  • Bookert

I didn’t call Steven, but I texted him.

I need to have my phone taken from me when I drink. Actually, I am really proud that I didn’t throw up from the beer. I wanted to though. I went into the bathroom and TRIED to throw up, but it didn’t work. Lmao. I call people that I have had feelings for all of these people at one time. ALL of them I liked at one time. God, I think that I am glad that no one picked up.