Filed under: AWESOME, Concerts, Friends, Insight, love, music | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, Drew, feelings, guys, happy, life, music
Well, last night was pretty awesome. Party Like Summer had an amazing set (even though I’m a little biased). I was in the front, although it’s not like there were all that many people there to stop me fro being up front. I was a chicken in the beginning and Bradlee walked past me about a billion times, but I was scared so I didn’t say anything. Then after his set I went outside and he was there so we hung out for a little bit and talked. He is a really cool guy and I’m glad that I met him or even texted him in the first place. Thanks Christofer Drew <3 I got tons of hugs and a kiss on the cheek and he told me to call him, which I will.
The only thing that stresses me out about with him is that it’s hard to have actual conversation with him sometimes. I’m not used to having to wait forever for someone to text me back and I don’t mean to be impatient, but it bothers me when he’s like “Im a busy beee” when I know for a fact that he is sitting in a van doing nothing..Lol. Oh well, I don’t need to stress. He is simply a friend.
On an even better note, today was awesome too. I hung out at the house until like one and then went to Drew’s house. We walked around Berkley while he tried to find a job. No luck though. It was nice hanging out with him though. Favorite moment all day : We were sitting on the couch watching tv, my head is on his shoulder, he moves his head down and kisses me. Then after one I turned my head because I thought it was only one and he turns to me and says “I wasn’t done.” and kisses me again. It still makes me smile. It’s just nice to know that the boy I love likes kissing me :]]]
This weekend was amazing.
Oh, I don’t know if I posted, but Groves’ production of Guys and Dolls was AMAZING! I WISH that SL could have shows like that. The Fall Play is this weekend and I hope for the love of Jesus, that it goes well. BREAK A LEG!
Filed under: AWESOME, Alcohol, Concerts, Friends, Insight, music | Tags: Alcohol, AWESOME, Bradlee, feelings, Friends, music, random, songs, Travis
Tonight is supposed to be the night. Tonight is the night I am going to Lansing to see Bradlee. I texted him this morning though and now I am more confused than ever. Nevermind. He just texted me back…. He makes me feel smile and gives me butterflies. I feel like this is some kind of dream though because I mean, what music loving girl doesn’t wanna get with the lead singer of a band? I’m pretty sure every girl does. It’s hot. He told me to come find him before the show, well as soon as I get there. I am so excited to see him in action. He is such a sweetheart and the music is amazing too. I am listening to the song “All We Know” right now it makes my stomach turn, but in a good way. I hope that even if things don’t work out like they do in my head, they still work out well. The whole night is seeming to fall together. I am leaving around like 4 and the show starts at 5:30. Then after the show, well what happens happens and I am crashing at Sarah’s for the night. My mom thinks that Sarah is coming with me. I am a little worried to go alone, but I mean, it’s a bar in Lansing with undiscovered bands playing, what could happen. The only thing I am stressing is that he has only seen me in pictures and when he sees me in person he won’t like what he sees. I am a fat slob in person and I have learned how to angle pics to make me look super good. I don’t know. I need to calm down and not stress out. Thats not what I need right now.
Oh, I’m also a little worried about how Tuesday is going to go. It will be when I go back to school and see Travis. I got a little drunk on Friday and texted him some kinda forward things. I mean, with him, I always wanna give him another shot because he is so important to me and my everyday life. I just don’t want to freak him out like I have a habit of doing with guys… A LOT.
Whatever. I don’t wanna talk about that anymore. I already kind of regret saying that stuff to him. When I think about it I kind of sound like a whore, which I know I’m not, I just have a lot of whore tendencies. It’s just when I see Travis, I think about how he hasn’t done ANYTHING more than holding hands and a simple kiss on the lips and how I know he wants to do more so bad, but doesn’t feel comfortable with a girl enough to do anything. I mean if anyone, he should be comfortable with me right? He trusts me and I am like his best friend. I don’t know. I just don’t want someone to take advantage of him or for him to have a bad first experience with some horrible girl. I want him to have it with me. Honestly, that sounds horrible. It sounds like I am some Dazed and Confused actor trying to deflower the young girls. “Thats one thing I love about high school girls. I keep getting older and they stay the same age.” 
DDD Tsk Tsk Janelle :p
Filed under: AWESOME, Depression, Friends, Insight, love, random | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, boyfriend, confusion, Drew, Emotions, fear, guys, life, school, Travis
Drew flaked on me. I guess to explain this, I should start from the beginning.
We have been talking the last couple weeks.
He asked for my number. I gave it to him.
He called me last night when I was at work, I called when I got off.
We talked for 3.5 hours until I was falling asleep.
Now it’s all caught up. We had made plans to hang out pretty much all day today. I was gonna spend the night at his house. I was looking forward to having him for the whole weekend :] Last night he told me to call him when I wake up, so thats what I did. We talk real quick and then he says hes going to go take a shower. Then he calls me back a little later and says that there is a major change in plans :[ He says that we can't hang out because he has to go do something with his mom and his other friend. I am really bummed and I know he feels really bad, but what can I do? Nothing. He promised me all next weekend <3 I think that I am going to bring to the football game. I don't know if it's a good idea though...because of Travis. I feel like real soon I am going to have to choose one. I don't want to, but I can't like both. They both can't be my love interest.
Krissy says that this is a sign, us not being able to hang out. I can't lie though and say that part of me doesn't agree, but I can't really explain it. I can't explain in words how good it feels to hear him say "I love you".
I feel like in a lot of ways I compare Drew and Travis and I know it's wrong but I can't help it. It's like they have what the oppisite doesn't. Drew has my heart. Travis has my friendship. Drew has the years of past. Travis has the everyday. Drew has the deep stuff. Travis has the fun stuff. Drew was there in a tough time. Travis is there now. I don't know. I just feel like in the end, Drew is going to win out for my heart. I also think this is because Travis doesn't really seem to want my heart. He keeps trying to hook me up with other people, always girls though. Travis is honestly one of my best friends.
This is hard. I am looking still looking forward to this weekend though :] I am going to the movies with Nada, Nora, Jade, Anthony, and some of his friends. We are going to see Paranormial Activity :] Tomorrow morning I have church and I think I might be working sunday during the day. Then I have youth group on Sunday night.
Oh, about Senior Highs… I feel like I need to try harder to be quiet. A lot of the time, I have a problem with self control. I need to learn when it’s okay to talk and when it’s not. I don’t want Grace to think that I am disrespecting her when I talk a lot.
Future Shows I plan on seeing:
Party Like Summer – Nov 6 in Lansing
NeverShoutNever – December 12 at the Filmore <3
Filed under: AWESOME, Concerts, Friends, love, music, religion, school | Tags: AWESOME, Emily, Family, Food, Friends, Krissy, life, religion, school
This weekend was pretty damn amazing :] With the exception of having my phone stolen on Friday… I just checked at security too and no one turned it in. The people there kind of laughed at me when I said I thought someone would turn it in. Now I have to get a new phone… Oh well though… shit happens and I can’t change it now so why linger?
NOW TO SATURDAY! On saturday morning, I went to Golf and Tennis with Kathy and got my racquet re-strung. It looks soooo boss man. I have bright neon yellow strings now It goes great with the blue face and orange grip. I love that I can spot my racquet from like seven miles away… atleast I know no one could steal it now and then use it infront of me. While we were waiting, we went to Subway. This is when my mother became embarrassing, which she normally isn’t, and basically told Kathy our life story. Maybe not EVERYTHING, but she got close. Lets just say that Kathy now knows A LOT more than she did before….
After we dropped Kathy off my mom did some quick errands and we went home. I got ready and left like an hour and a half or so later…. I drove to Emily’s house and then to Northbrook for SoulFire. IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN!!!! I never thought that God and Jesus and anything at church could be so enjoyable. There were games and music and cards and all that good stuff. Then we had a music packed worship led by Seven Glory and Bob. Bob is the youth director there…. he’s a cool guy. After the worship, Seven Glory had a concert and Em and I were jamming out. We didn’t even notice when Abby and Sara were gone. They weren’t as into it as Em and I were.
After the concert, Em asked if I wanted to spend the night at her house. Her mom said yes. My mom said yes. I went home after got some clothes and drove back to Em’s. I was really shocked that my mother let me take the car and KEEP it like all night/morning. I had a really good time at Emily’s house. We slept on the pullout couch and spent like a billion hours talking. We were up until four in the morning talking actually. Then we had to get up at like 8:30am for church.
I really did enjoy church though. At Northbrook they seem to make things fun, and… different… in a way I can understand it. I told my mom that I want to become a member there and both her and Emily said that I should take some more time and make SURE that it is the church for me before I make such a big commitment. It’s understandable, but I mean, I’ve been there before and I REALLY like it there. I don’t know.. I guess it doesn’t hurt to take some more time and be absolutely POSITIVE. After church, Mrs. S got us all bagels, but I had to leave right after I ate.
When I got home we had to leave again to meet Diane and Carol for Brunch. I had a lot of fun with them, I always do. They really are like my favorite family members. We went to Bob Evans and the omelette was SOOOOOOOOOO good. I wanted more. That too and the home fries were crazy good.
We went to Aunt Pat’s after and I slept. We went home. Mom and Bruce got into this really big fight when we got home. Mom was all like GET OUT and Bruce was all like FUCK YOU and it was just screaming and yelling and craziness. I locked myself in the bathroom until they were done. Then I went to sleep, got up, ate, watched tv, went back to sleep. I was a sleepy girl :]
OHHH. I got a new nose stud on Friday too :] It’s a peace sign and I am in LOVE with it.
I get to get a new phone though :] Hopefully a samsung Gravtiy like I want.
I can’t wait until Friday!!! I get to see Krissy!! I am going to Ann Arbor for Relay for Life so I’m spending most of the weekend there. I CAN’T WAIT!
NEXT WEEK IS SPRING BREAK! YAY! (Too bad all I’m going to do is play tennis because we have two-a-days Monday thru Thursday.)
Filed under: AWESOME, Concerts, music | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, love, Marilyn Manson, music, songs
Marilyn Manson’s new album is titled “The high end of low” and it comes out in May 2009. I am sooooooooooo excited. Oh and he is headlining Mayhemfest and is coming to Michigan on August 2, 2009. I want to go REALLY bad, but lawn tickets are $66… I will see what I can swing man. I hope I can go.
I LOVE MARILYN MANSON!!!!!!!!!!
Filed under: AWESOME, Friends | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, Cruise, Florida, Friends, Krissy, life, Vacation
The Bahamas and Miami were AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! The pictures that I took don’t do it justice at all.
Okay. Here is the re-cap then:
Day One : We flew to Miami from Detroit and when we got there we went to our hotel, Downtown Continental Bayside. It was a crappy hotel, but it was close to everything. We got settled and then walked across the street to the Bayside Marketplace, which is basically a big outdoor mall. It was soo nice there and it was right next to the port. We ate dinner at Chili’s and then went back to the hotel.
Day Two: Wake up, eat chinese at Bayside Marketplace. Shop a little. Back to the hotel. Taxi to the port. BOARD THE SHIP!!! We walked around a little, but then we ended up chilling in the room until dinner, which was amazing by the way. The food in general was good :] Hung out a little. Bought flip flops and pringles, then we went back to room and snacked while watching some tube.
Day Three: We got up and ate then took the boat to Coco Cay, the cruise line’s private island in the Bahamas. It was so amazingly beautiful there. I swam a little. The water was BEYOND salty and because it was we didn’t swim for a really long time. It was also hard to swim much because we had to watch the kids. One is three and doesn’t know how to swim so Kris carried her. The other is eight and was “scared” so she spent most of the time locked onto my side. All these factors made it hard to have a ton of fun swimming around. I tanned some and then we went back to the boat. By then, we played with the kids a bit and kept them in our room while the parents were off doing whatever. Showered. Got dressed for dinner :] It was the formal night. I looked purrrrrrrrrrrty. After dinner, we were going to go to the show, but we couldn’t find anyone else that wanted to go so we didn’t go. We stayed in the cabin and watched House Bunny. SOOO good :]
Day Four: This was the Day in Nassau. It was amazingly beautiful. We started off by deciding to take a tour of the island and then went to the island next to it, Paradise Island. We went to the prettiest hotel I have ever seen in my entire life. It was Atlantis and it was just like WOAH the whole time. We walked around and I took a billion and seven pictures. It was amazing. When we were done with the tour, the driver took us to this shabby place with a lot of restaurants. We went into this seafood place and it seemed like the only thing they had was conk. I was like wtf!???!??!?!?! Krissy and I had virgin strawberry daquiris and they were REALLY good. Also ate a little, some lobster and plantains. The Mac and Chesse was actually really good though :] Done eating, more shopping. Met a really nice women who was very motherly and spoke french <3 When we got back on the boat, we went swimming and then went back to the cabin to shower of course. Casual dinner, the final supper. It was good :] I had Steak mmmmmmm <3 After dinner, we all went to the final show, the musical craziness. I loved it not only because it was simply good, but because it was good to be back in a theatre again :] Felt like I was more at peace and kind of ‘home’ in a way. After the show, we went to sleep because we had to wake up early.
Day Five: Up early. Off the boat. Miami <3. Walked around A LOT. Did some shopping. Ate A LOT. Swimming in the pool. Tanning attempt at the beach. Ate some more. Shopped some more. Than ate some more. Went back to hotel. The best part though was walking down to the beach in the dark. It was so beautiful. I hate that I couldn’t photograph it, but the picture wouldn’t have done it justice anyway. Then we went back to the hotel and went to sleep because we had an early flight, kinda.
Day Six : Goodbye Miami Beach, Hello Miami International Airport. Went through all the crap there with bags and security and whatnot. They made me throw out my face wash and suntan lotion :[ :[ Flight was HORRIBLE. I sat next to a giant, noisy, arab, grizzly bear. Guh. The girl that sat on the other side of me (because I was in the middle seat) was really nice though. She offered me a magazine and let me lean towards hers so I wasn’t being arm raped by the bear. Oh my gosh, I never realized how cold Michigan really is. FUCKING FREEZING! Home.
THE END
It was a once in a lifetime trip to take with my best friend and I am really glad that I went. Krissy, we fight and argue and piss each other off a lot, but I think you def said it best when you said it and I agree.
In the end, I wouldn’t change a thing either <3
Filed under: AWESOME, Friends, random | Tags: AHHHH, AWESOME, Christmas, Excited, Florida, Krissy, love, Melad, Travis, Wigilia
I get to see all my friends soon :] Christmas break is like 5 days away and I am sooo excited. So many things are happening during break. My cousin Ashleigh’s Sweet Sixteen, Melad’s Birthday, Nada’s Birthday, CHRISTMAS!, Wigilia, and of course, going to Florida and the bahamas with Krispy. I can’t wait man. Can it be Friday now so that I can go to Frankenmuth with Krissy and Sarah NOW! Lmao. I am just really happy. The only bummer to x-mas break is not seeing Travis for two weeks. Hopefully his parents will let him hang out with me. No biggie though, I will talk to him. I am sure.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Everything is coming so soon. In a matter of like weeks, it will be 2009 man! I can’t wait to write my first blog of 2009 :]
P.S. Nirvana is the shit man.
Filed under: AWESOME, Friends, random | Tags: AWESOME, David, Friends, Melad, Samir
I am now sitting in the room of two freshman boys and it is sooo weird. They are adorable though… They are my friends Mellie’s little brothers. Their names are Samir and David. David is hovering over me right now. Creeper. :] Haha. He laughed.
Samir is such a bitch man. I want to smack him. He is pissing me the fuck off!!!! I love me some Mellie though <3 She is the biggest sweetheart that I know. I don’t know what I would do without her. I am so glad I met her last year :]
I am going to go now… It is weird sitting/kneeling here while everyone (except Samir) watching me type. Peaceee
Filed under: AWESOME, Friends, love | Tags: 007, Amazing, AWESOME, Boss, Dreams, Emily, Friends, James Bond, love, Michael, movies, Panic, Perfect, Travis, Wesley
Today was an AMAZING day…
I didn’t get to see Travie Boy and Michael though and that was kinda the only thing that bummed me out. I had a perfect dream. I wrote a note on my phone when I woke up, here it is: “I had this dream we were together. We were at a party. When danger appeared and you thought you were going to lose me, you held me in your arms and told me that you loved me. I looked into your eyes and knew it was real. All I could do was say, “I love you too.” Then the danger was gone and you still loved me, but we had to hide it. Our love was forbidden. When we got to the end of that street you let go of my hand, held my face in your arms, and kissed me. You said that I could get by without you, but that I would never have to. You would always be there for me. When we got inside and were seperated, I searched across the room and when our eyes locked, neither of us could control the smiles we both had. We walked towards each other and kissed without thinking. The world was watching us now. The world knew and we didn’t care. We had each other. The last thing I remember before I woke up was you whispering in my ear, “I will always love you, I hope everyone knows.”
I’m not going to say who it is about though… I don’t want freaking. I paniced after I woke up, but I was smiling. It’s complicated. That’s all I can say. I’m just really confusing and emotionally conflicted.
Oh, back to the amazing night <3 Wes, Emily, Me, Teddy, Micah, Ryan, and Brian went to go see 007 and it was sooo BOSS. We had to sit in the front because there were so many people and there weren’t seven seats together. There was sooo much action in the movie. I didn’t really want to go see it, but I did because they did. I think the thing that made it so fun was because I was sitting next to Emily and she talks just as much as I do and we were saying random shit the WHOLE movie. I really wish that Michael and Travie Boy could have come, too bad though. There will be other movies right? I hope so. Tonight was a blast!!!!
Filed under: AWESOME, Friends | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, Dinner, Fall play, Food, Friends, Fun, Joe, Melad, Night of January 16th, Wesley
Last night was amazingly amazing!
- I had an amazing performance.
- Wesley, Melad, and Kevin came to the show.
- My mom, Greg, and Dianne came to the show as well.
- My let me have the car for the night.
- I didn’t break anything… on the car.
- The cast dinner was sooo much fun.
- I kissed Joe, the sexy boy, and EVERYONE wanted him.
- Wes got a little jealous and it was adorable.
- I made it home before curfew.
- IT WAS JUST PLAIN OLE’ AMAZING.
