Filed under: AWESOME, Concerts, Friends, Insight, love, music | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, Drew, feelings, guys, happy, life, music
Well, last night was pretty awesome. Party Like Summer had an amazing set (even though I’m a little biased). I was in the front, although it’s not like there were all that many people there to stop me fro being up front. I was a chicken in the beginning and Bradlee walked past me about a billion times, but I was scared so I didn’t say anything. Then after his set I went outside and he was there so we hung out for a little bit and talked. He is a really cool guy and I’m glad that I met him or even texted him in the first place. Thanks Christofer Drew <3 I got tons of hugs and a kiss on the cheek and he told me to call him, which I will.
The only thing that stresses me out about with him is that it’s hard to have actual conversation with him sometimes. I’m not used to having to wait forever for someone to text me back and I don’t mean to be impatient, but it bothers me when he’s like “Im a busy beee” when I know for a fact that he is sitting in a van doing nothing..Lol. Oh well, I don’t need to stress. He is simply a friend.
On an even better note, today was awesome too. I hung out at the house until like one and then went to Drew’s house. We walked around Berkley while he tried to find a job. No luck though. It was nice hanging out with him though. Favorite moment all day : We were sitting on the couch watching tv, my head is on his shoulder, he moves his head down and kisses me. Then after one I turned my head because I thought it was only one and he turns to me and says “I wasn’t done.” and kisses me again. It still makes me smile. It’s just nice to know that the boy I love likes kissing me :]]]
This weekend was amazing.
Oh, I don’t know if I posted, but Groves’ production of Guys and Dolls was AMAZING! I WISH that SL could have shows like that. The Fall Play is this weekend and I hope for the love of Jesus, that it goes well. BREAK A LEG!
Filed under: AWESOME, Insight, love | Tags: Amazing, Bradlee, Changing, Emotions, life, self
You know how sometimes people say rather small things that make a huge crash on certain people. I just read one of the blogs that Bradlee wrote on the Party Like Summer Myspace an I feel like my soul has been ripped out and typed by someone else. I just want other people to read it too. He wrote:
“I woke up this morning and there was a piece of paper on my floor.
Scribbled on it just two words, “don’t worry”.
I’m not sure exactly when, or if, i wrote this.
But i do know it bugged me a ton.
I thought about those two words all day and came to this conclusion;
Sometimes it seems as a society we spend far to much time worrying about silly stuff.
We tend to over look life’s little beauties because were so wrapped in all of the drama.
Every little thing that we do from switching on a light switch and having the light turn on,
to taking a deep breath and the air around us having just the right amount of gasses for our lungs to filter it thus giving our bodies essential oxygen.
All these things are tiny little miracles that should bring us a ton of joy, but we overlook because were too busy worrying.”
Filed under: AWESOME, Insight, random | Tags: Amazing, feelings, Friends, guys, happy, life, school, Travis
Travis told me to write a new blog so I think I will. This week has been kind of okay. I wasn’t feeling that well on monday or tuesday, so on tuesday I didn’t go to school. I talked to Bradlee all day though :] He is someone that is so awesome. I don’t know what is going to happen with him. He is in a band. Their name is Party Like Summer and the music is super amazing! I’m going to his show in Lansing on sunday night. I am excited to see him <3 Bradlee Meredith is simply amazing… I don’t know what else to say.
I miss Krissy :[
Life is kinda okay now. Drew comes home for good either today or tomorrow. I hope that things work out with us. I’m not willing to let go of him, but I don’t know anymore. I had this really long talk with Grace last night. It was really nice. We talked for like 3 hours after everyone else left Bible Study. Last night was a good time <3
Filed under: AWESOME, Depression, Friends, Insight, love, random | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, boyfriend, confusion, Drew, Emotions, fear, guys, life, school, Travis
Drew flaked on me. I guess to explain this, I should start from the beginning.
We have been talking the last couple weeks.
He asked for my number. I gave it to him.
He called me last night when I was at work, I called when I got off.
We talked for 3.5 hours until I was falling asleep.
Now it’s all caught up. We had made plans to hang out pretty much all day today. I was gonna spend the night at his house. I was looking forward to having him for the whole weekend :] Last night he told me to call him when I wake up, so thats what I did. We talk real quick and then he says hes going to go take a shower. Then he calls me back a little later and says that there is a major change in plans :[ He says that we can't hang out because he has to go do something with his mom and his other friend. I am really bummed and I know he feels really bad, but what can I do? Nothing. He promised me all next weekend <3 I think that I am going to bring to the football game. I don't know if it's a good idea though...because of Travis. I feel like real soon I am going to have to choose one. I don't want to, but I can't like both. They both can't be my love interest.
Krissy says that this is a sign, us not being able to hang out. I can't lie though and say that part of me doesn't agree, but I can't really explain it. I can't explain in words how good it feels to hear him say "I love you".
I feel like in a lot of ways I compare Drew and Travis and I know it's wrong but I can't help it. It's like they have what the oppisite doesn't. Drew has my heart. Travis has my friendship. Drew has the years of past. Travis has the everyday. Drew has the deep stuff. Travis has the fun stuff. Drew was there in a tough time. Travis is there now. I don't know. I just feel like in the end, Drew is going to win out for my heart. I also think this is because Travis doesn't really seem to want my heart. He keeps trying to hook me up with other people, always girls though. Travis is honestly one of my best friends.
This is hard. I am looking still looking forward to this weekend though :] I am going to the movies with Nada, Nora, Jade, Anthony, and some of his friends. We are going to see Paranormial Activity :] Tomorrow morning I have church and I think I might be working sunday during the day. Then I have youth group on Sunday night.
Oh, about Senior Highs… I feel like I need to try harder to be quiet. A lot of the time, I have a problem with self control. I need to learn when it’s okay to talk and when it’s not. I don’t want Grace to think that I am disrespecting her when I talk a lot.
Future Shows I plan on seeing:
Party Like Summer – Nov 6 in Lansing
NeverShoutNever – December 12 at the Filmore <3
Filed under: Friends, music, school | Tags: Amazing, Friends, Homecoming, love, school, Senior, Set, Travis
I just got home. I did a lot of shit today at school. It was pretty good though. I finally saw Travis. He wasn’t at school yesterday. I found out this morning that it was because his great grand dad passed away. I feel bad, but he seems to be holding up well. I don’t want to see him upset. I think thats why most of the time, I just do what he wants. I know that it’s not always the smartest thing, but I know that I want him to be happy and if that means going along with him than to me, thats fine. I don’t see the harm in it. I had set crew today after school too. It was fun, I’ve missed set. Bad part, we have to cut a billion and seventy leaves. Good part, I’m stage manager :] After set I came home for like two seconds, grabbed a book that Travis needed and went back to school. I know it sounds weird. but I love watching him play. I think it’s because he’s so good and because something with music in general connects so much with me. When he makes music, my heart stops.
HOMECOMING! Homecoming was Saturday. I had sooo much fun. It really is a good time. I love the dancing and everyone all dressed up :] I wish Travis had come with me, but he didn’t want to. What can I do? I can’t force him to so… I went with Melaysia :]]] We were looking beast <3 It was defidently a good final Homecoming.
I feel like Senior year is flying but then it’s crawling by. I feel like I’m not really trying as much as I should be either. I need to be studying more. I feel like I don’t really do homework, I come home most days and sleep. I have been really tired lately. I don’t know why… I don’t know. I just really want all As and right now, it’s looking like 4 Bs and 2 As. Not good enough.
I want to watch One Tree Hill on HuLu. I think I will. I like Drake :] I wish he wasn’t so with Lil Wayne.
Filed under: AWESOME, Concerts, music | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, love, Marilyn Manson, music, songs
Marilyn Manson’s new album is titled “The high end of low” and it comes out in May 2009. I am sooooooooooo excited. Oh and he is headlining Mayhemfest and is coming to Michigan on August 2, 2009. I want to go REALLY bad, but lawn tickets are $66… I will see what I can swing man. I hope I can go.
I LOVE MARILYN MANSON!!!!!!!!!!
Filed under: AWESOME, Friends, random | Tags: Amazing, Emily, Food, Friends, Travis, Wesley
Well, break isn’t so bad. I have tennis practice all week. I had set today and I have it tomorrow, I don’t mind though because I get to see the people that I love. I get to hang out and bug Michael while he plays his bass. I get to bug Emily while she dances. I get to bug Simon while he sings. It all good fun. The only thing that sucks though man is that I have to wake up at like 7am. Thats crazzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyy. I was tired, but it was okay because when I got home, I ate and went to sleep. I think another reason I was so tired is because I hung out with Rachel last night.
OMFG!!!! Rachel Benson is amazing! I love that girl man. We hung out last night. She texted me and asked if I wanted to hang out. I was like heck yea because I love chillin with Rachel, it’s like… you never know what is going to happen. So here is what happened. First she came over and we picked a movie; Hairspray. We watched the movie and sang to EVERY song. It was horribly off key, but full of love. Then we smoked two coals worth of Hookah. Went to MickeyD’s and ate. I think that the people who were working thought that we were high because we were giggling like crazy and Rachel dropped the money outside.
All and all though, from the two days I’ve experienced, Mid-Winter Break 2009 is going to be fun times man!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, about Valentine’s Day. I wasn’t alone. I went to the movies with Wes, Em, and Laddie. We saw Confessions of a Shopaholic and it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. I loved it. I want a guy like that. I want a guy to say she’s not my girlfriend… she’s not you when I ask if some other girl is his. I want the kind of love that can withstand the hard times. I can hardly get love this last through the easy times. I mean come on, my last bf broke up with me when he didn’t even see me for two weeks….. What the hell man.
I have Tennis in an hour and like barely anyone is going to be there because it’s only for an hour, but I do love practice with Coach Joe and I have honestly missed Tuesday night practices :]
I’m glad that I don’t suck at tennis because I haven’t really planned in months.
Filed under: AWESOME, Friends | Tags: Amazing, AWESOME, Cruise, Florida, Friends, Krissy, life, Vacation
The Bahamas and Miami were AMAZING!!!!!!!!!! The pictures that I took don’t do it justice at all.
Okay. Here is the re-cap then:
Day One : We flew to Miami from Detroit and when we got there we went to our hotel, Downtown Continental Bayside. It was a crappy hotel, but it was close to everything. We got settled and then walked across the street to the Bayside Marketplace, which is basically a big outdoor mall. It was soo nice there and it was right next to the port. We ate dinner at Chili’s and then went back to the hotel.
Day Two: Wake up, eat chinese at Bayside Marketplace. Shop a little. Back to the hotel. Taxi to the port. BOARD THE SHIP!!! We walked around a little, but then we ended up chilling in the room until dinner, which was amazing by the way. The food in general was good :] Hung out a little. Bought flip flops and pringles, then we went back to room and snacked while watching some tube.
Day Three: We got up and ate then took the boat to Coco Cay, the cruise line’s private island in the Bahamas. It was so amazingly beautiful there. I swam a little. The water was BEYOND salty and because it was we didn’t swim for a really long time. It was also hard to swim much because we had to watch the kids. One is three and doesn’t know how to swim so Kris carried her. The other is eight and was “scared” so she spent most of the time locked onto my side. All these factors made it hard to have a ton of fun swimming around. I tanned some and then we went back to the boat. By then, we played with the kids a bit and kept them in our room while the parents were off doing whatever. Showered. Got dressed for dinner :] It was the formal night. I looked purrrrrrrrrrrty. After dinner, we were going to go to the show, but we couldn’t find anyone else that wanted to go so we didn’t go. We stayed in the cabin and watched House Bunny. SOOO good :]
Day Four: This was the Day in Nassau. It was amazingly beautiful. We started off by deciding to take a tour of the island and then went to the island next to it, Paradise Island. We went to the prettiest hotel I have ever seen in my entire life. It was Atlantis and it was just like WOAH the whole time. We walked around and I took a billion and seven pictures. It was amazing. When we were done with the tour, the driver took us to this shabby place with a lot of restaurants. We went into this seafood place and it seemed like the only thing they had was conk. I was like wtf!???!??!?!?! Krissy and I had virgin strawberry daquiris and they were REALLY good. Also ate a little, some lobster and plantains. The Mac and Chesse was actually really good though :] Done eating, more shopping. Met a really nice women who was very motherly and spoke french <3 When we got back on the boat, we went swimming and then went back to the cabin to shower of course. Casual dinner, the final supper. It was good :] I had Steak mmmmmmm <3 After dinner, we all went to the final show, the musical craziness. I loved it not only because it was simply good, but because it was good to be back in a theatre again :] Felt like I was more at peace and kind of ‘home’ in a way. After the show, we went to sleep because we had to wake up early.
Day Five: Up early. Off the boat. Miami <3. Walked around A LOT. Did some shopping. Ate A LOT. Swimming in the pool. Tanning attempt at the beach. Ate some more. Shopped some more. Than ate some more. Went back to hotel. The best part though was walking down to the beach in the dark. It was so beautiful. I hate that I couldn’t photograph it, but the picture wouldn’t have done it justice anyway. Then we went back to the hotel and went to sleep because we had an early flight, kinda.
Day Six : Goodbye Miami Beach, Hello Miami International Airport. Went through all the crap there with bags and security and whatnot. They made me throw out my face wash and suntan lotion :[ :[ Flight was HORRIBLE. I sat next to a giant, noisy, arab, grizzly bear. Guh. The girl that sat on the other side of me (because I was in the middle seat) was really nice though. She offered me a magazine and let me lean towards hers so I wasn’t being arm raped by the bear. Oh my gosh, I never realized how cold Michigan really is. FUCKING FREEZING! Home.
THE END
It was a once in a lifetime trip to take with my best friend and I am really glad that I went. Krissy, we fight and argue and piss each other off a lot, but I think you def said it best when you said it and I agree.
In the end, I wouldn’t change a thing either <3
Filed under: AWESOME, love | Tags: Amazing, Friends, love, Relationships, TravieBoy, Travis
I like Travis. I want Travis. I am getting for Travis.
That is the end of the story :]
Okay… maybe it’s not, but right now HE is all that I can think about. I mean… why shouldn’t I want to be with him?
- He is amazing.
- He is cute.
- He holds my hand.
- He is smart.
- Half the school already thinks that we are together.
- His bestie thinks that we would be adorable together.
- Did I mention he is amazing?
At this point, he is what I want. I really do like Travis a lot. The only worries that I have are 1.) His parents and 2.) Michael. I already know that my mom likes Travis, but I also know that his parents would have an issue with me being older than him. I want them to like me more than anything. I talked to Joie and we came to the conclusion that all I can do is go for it and hope that they will grow to love me and just not care. The thing with Michael… well, that’s just complicated. If you read my blogs, you know why. I’m not going into that right now.
I just really like Travis and I want to be with him like… a lot <3
I love me some TravieBoy :]
Filed under: AWESOME, Friends, love | Tags: 007, Amazing, AWESOME, Boss, Dreams, Emily, Friends, James Bond, love, Michael, movies, Panic, Perfect, Travis, Wesley
Today was an AMAZING day…
I didn’t get to see Travie Boy and Michael though and that was kinda the only thing that bummed me out. I had a perfect dream. I wrote a note on my phone when I woke up, here it is: “I had this dream we were together. We were at a party. When danger appeared and you thought you were going to lose me, you held me in your arms and told me that you loved me. I looked into your eyes and knew it was real. All I could do was say, “I love you too.” Then the danger was gone and you still loved me, but we had to hide it. Our love was forbidden. When we got to the end of that street you let go of my hand, held my face in your arms, and kissed me. You said that I could get by without you, but that I would never have to. You would always be there for me. When we got inside and were seperated, I searched across the room and when our eyes locked, neither of us could control the smiles we both had. We walked towards each other and kissed without thinking. The world was watching us now. The world knew and we didn’t care. We had each other. The last thing I remember before I woke up was you whispering in my ear, “I will always love you, I hope everyone knows.”
I’m not going to say who it is about though… I don’t want freaking. I paniced after I woke up, but I was smiling. It’s complicated. That’s all I can say. I’m just really confusing and emotionally conflicted.
Oh, back to the amazing night <3 Wes, Emily, Me, Teddy, Micah, Ryan, and Brian went to go see 007 and it was sooo BOSS. We had to sit in the front because there were so many people and there weren’t seven seats together. There was sooo much action in the movie. I didn’t really want to go see it, but I did because they did. I think the thing that made it so fun was because I was sitting next to Emily and she talks just as much as I do and we were saying random shit the WHOLE movie. I really wish that Michael and Travie Boy could have come, too bad though. There will be other movies right? I hope so. Tonight was a blast!!!!
