No Good With Faces.

I need to not worry. I can’t let this ruin my weekend/day/week, however long this lasts… I am going to give her space and have faith that our friendship is stronger than this. She is branching out and I’m really happy for her, I just hope she doesn’t forget about me in the process. She will talk to me when she is ready and I can’t do much of anything until then, I just hope it’s not too long. She is really a great friend and I miss talking to her already…

All those times she joked about how I call everyone my “best friend” I shouldn’t have laughed. She is my best friend and I’d like to keep it that way.

I think that because of this, I have been doing a lot of thinking. I know that sometimes, I am a a jealous friend and I get possessive when I know that I have no right to. She is in my life by her choice and I don’t ever want her to feel like she is being forced. A friendship isn’t much of a friendship if one end doesn’t want it. I know that I am overreading into this, but I’m preparing myself for some of the options. One part of me wants to be like, everything will be fine. Janelle, give her a few days to calm down and then when she isn’t so angry, you will explain to her that it was a misunderstanding, everything will be fine. The other part of me is going crazy because I can’t do this again. I can’t lose another friend like this, not her. I can’t fight for a friendship again, but I know that if I have to, I will. She means more to me than this. We haven’t said more than 5 words to other in the last 30 hours, this is the longest fight that we have ever had. I think that this is why I am so scared. She is the type of person who doesn’t get mad easy and if she does, it doesn’t last long… She literally gets over things in like 10 minutes.

I wish she would just talk to me…but I will wait until she is ready.

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