No One Like You.

Sometimes we have these people in ours lives and they completely flip every around…

One day you meet them and you aren’t quite sure how life was before that single day. You will spend so many hours talking and getting to know her. You will spend countless hours texting her, slowly growing to care more. You will do all the cute shit, like visiting her at work, or bringing her lunch because she’s hungry. You will start to stumble over your words because sometimes, you just get lost in her eyes and the words slip away from you. You don’t even know whats happening then, but it’s something so wonderful. You will become best friends and she will mean the world to you.

One night you will become more than that. Everything will seem perfect and she will kiss you softly and touch your body. She will give you her first and you will be gentle with her. You will try to make it so amazing for her, but you will always be unsure about it. You will taste her on your lips and remember that she truly so sweet. The next day, you will wake up with her in your bed and wish that it could happen every morning. It won’t though. It won’t happen ever again, no matter how long you spend wishing she would come back and give you another chance.

You fall in love, you make so many memories and as fast as it happened, they are gone. They have moved on to someone else, someone better. You are left standing there trying to figure out where you went wrong and why this is happening to you… Why did she leave? What did I do wrong? What does she have that I don’t? Why am I not good enough? You will never find the answers because she won’t talk to you anymore. You will spend years hung up on her and she will do her best to ignore you. When she has to, she will acknowledge that you did something nice, but in the end, she will forget your birthday and ignore every single text message you send her. You won’t give up though… You will continue to send that “heyy” text every single day, hoping that today will be the day that she replies. You will spend nights crying and make drunken phone calls, trying to answer those questions, but she will giggle and tell you that you are sweet and that you mean so much to her. In the end, you won’t believe her though. You told her how much you loved her..and she laughed. You will then spend that night crying yourself to sleep because more than anything you want to hear her say, “I am in love with you too.” She never will though because you will never be good enough.

You will never be the one that made her fall. You were there to catch her though when she was pushed down. You were there when she cried and when she needed someone. You were the one that introduced her to the love of her life. You shoved her away and you didn’t even know it. You thought you were being a good friend and that they would never turn into anything, but then they did and you supported her because you wanted her to be happy. You wanted them to work at first, but then it wasn’t good anymore and you wished more than anything that she would notice you. You would spend so many hours trying to help them fix their relationship when you really wished that it would be over and that she would finally be with you, the one who could make all her problems go away. You will write countless poems about how beautiful she is and how much she means to you, but in the end, it will all be summed up into a letter about how much she cares about you and how you were there for her. She will write she doesn’t know what she would do without you, but she will give you up in a millisecond. You will spend more days thinking about her and more nights crying over her because you’ve finally come to terms that she will never want you…

Finally, you will spend one morning looking through your blog and come across a picture of her and want to cry because you know how much you still love her. You know that no matter what, you will love her. You are trying so hard to not be in love with her anymore, but you know it’s breaking your heart every single day. You will sit at work and cry because you don’t know what to do anymore.

One day you will feel completely hopeless. That day will be today.