Thoughts from an Unknown.

     Sometimes I feel like my life is some kind of television show that I watch in my head. Some people have voiceovers and scenes, I have characters that every good show has. Lately the one I have been focusing on is the hitman. The person who tries to destroy everything that matters, the villian. I just wish that my villian could just be a person I could avoid…. too bad it’s not. In my show, my villian is change. Change is what is stalking me and taking those incriminating pictures. Change is what is causing me to look around corners and hear bums in the night.

      I just kind of hoped that change wouldn’t have caught up with me as fast as it has. It’s like it jumped about twenty steps ahead on me and somehow managed to push me in a corner, a place where I have no place to turn. The truth about me is that I am terrified on the inside. I have grown accustomed to my life the way things are. Having people I care about a arms length, always having something to do on the weekend, random talks about nothingness, and comfort. Comfort is the thing that I think I am most scared of loosing. Comfort and Security.

     I just don’t want things to change and I know they are going to….

     Somtimes I just feel like I am cheated. I get close to someone again when I know we are about to drift apart. I wish it wasn’t like that though. Now, everyone knows my villian. Change.