Thoughts from an Unknown.

     Well, I am trying to move on now. I sent Drew a message telling him that I was done with all the drama and that I couldn’t take it. I wasn’t going to let him break my heart again. That I just WOULDN’T do it. I am kind of sad that it’s coming to an end. I feel like there is so much that I want to have with him. I want him to be someone that I can look back on and be like “wow … he was an amazing person and he really did change my life for the better.” Too bad that I can’t really do that. It seems like he will be the person that changed me the best and make me grow up the most. I have learned about myself from being with him. I have learned that I deserve better than someone who doesn’t treat me like a person. I learned that I shouldn’t have to come second to someone. I learned that not everyone that says that they love me will mean it. I don’t know how I feel about it all though. I would like to think that he did love me when he sent it, but the actions never really backed up the feelings.

     Now I am on to new and better things. Mike, a friend of mine is attempting to hook me up with him friend Mark. It came from a random text asking me whats up. I know Mike and I know that since I don’t talk to him on text often, let alone when he starts it, that something had to be up. I then asked him why he was talking to me. He denied having motives, but I said that I knew him better than that. I was a little confused when he asked me how my boyfriend was. I told him that he was about to be dumped…why? He said that his friend was interested in me. Apparently they were looking at cute girls on facebook and I came up. I was kinda like when did I enter the “cute girls” section. Well actually I was like “I’m on the cute girls list?” He was like of course. Long story short his friend is going to call me or something during some course of the week. I was a little confused when I asked if he was going to do the whole typcial … call me … ask me out … take me out … thing. Mike’s answer was “Or you could fuck and see where that takes you.” I said no.

     I am soooo done with the meaningless hookups.

    I know it’s shallow, but I hope it isn’t the guy I say on his facebook. He was ugly…